..:i'|| bLeEd KnOwInG u dUn cArE:..

im back~!!

2005-08-26T20:07:00.000-07:00

heys, sowies it had been a loOoOoOoOng time since i've blogged!hahaz well so many things happened,that no words could describe.u noe,ppl coming in and out of ur life n wad not.kies2,todae was the teachers dae rehearsal n juz a shout out to tHe CoRrUpTioN cReW,u ppl rawk my world!!hahaz u noe i'll always have ur backs=).n ppl guess wad??damn sia..i gt back my a maths paper back n the results was wAaAaAay pathetic!!*slaps self*i got 13 out of 60! dats like ermz...(*thinking*..urgh! cun think!bAnG!*shoot self*)hahaz wokies being lame but relli its only arnd one fifth of the total mark.sheesh.haiz...buck up izza!i hope i pass my emaths.god plz help me=(
hahaz hmz..well to huda,yas n sab..an advice from me!=)tak bagus matae ni sumer!as huda saes its only an ujian dari manusia but pape puns we have to be bersyukur wif wad we have.life's not alwaes rite u noe?so juz bersabar n smile=).remember,god hanya uji orang yang dia sayang.klah dats all*winks*hahaz i noe2 u muz have heard dat from me atleast ten times already.but if ur feeling really down n u think bout it,u'll definately feel more positive.well till here jeks.take care ppl.may the force be with ya! nanu nanu!hehe*shake heads*(quoted from alsagoff cher)

pesanan buat kekasih

2005-01-23T20:19:00.000-08:00

Izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar kupaparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi
Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya
Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang
Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
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Terhumban rasa diriku
Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah
Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
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Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang...

[izza ish back]

2005-01-23T20:14:00.000-08:00

heyz....dah lamer eh i nv update my blog??hahahz well sOoOOoOoOoOOOOo many things happen.relli.i think i cud drop dead any moment.life is also tiring.n is testing me more n more as the daes pass by.my kaycee peepz is well nt relli doing to well.facing ups n downs in life.bt generally thier okiez.surviving.hmz..well nth much to sae so i'll end here aitez.i dunno how to put things into words=)take care peepz.n oh yah alfa n nadia patched!!!hahaz touching.gd luck aitez 2 u 2.hope u all last long together.

argh!!!

2005-01-05T20:39:00.000-08:00

aAaAaAaAaAaRrRrRrRgGgGgGgGgGhHhHhHhHhh!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~
god plz...change my life!!!u either change it or take it away..coz i cun take it anymore!!!haiz.,.bersabar izza...bersabar....='(

camp was fun~!!

2004-12-30T14:00:00.000-08:00

heyz~dah lamer tak blog..cam dah mls gitu.hehe wellz alot of things happen.camp was fun!!n thnx ex-co's 4 the cake n prezzie~hehe we were dancing all nite manz.allya,me,tiara,farah n joyce hahaz real fun.now backi home still leading life.missing my kc peepz!!!n eh alip[ex] if ur reading dis..wanna noe wad...i dreamt bout sumthing/sumone 4 the third time dis month seh.haiz...n im sho shocked.y??hmz..well as u saed..kiter sebagai manusia tak dpt atuapun mampu control our dreamz.ouhz wells till here.ngah bz uat hmwk uh..*dies* sho chioz.
OvE mA kAyCeE pEePz!!![kaycee as huda spells it.hehe=D]

god plz bless my loved ones..

2004-12-25T15:13:00.000-08:00

heyz..ive juz finished reading fadilah's n sari's blog.n sary dear if ur reading dis everything is okiez btwn us right?=) i realised..dat now..ppl seem to really turn to God.turning to him 4 faith.pouring thier hearts out n hoping that God..one dae..wud ans thier prayers n bring happiness n peace in thier heart n life.4 my previous entry ive written my cries 4 u.

n now God..plz hear me out..i dun mind if things in my life dun turn alrite again.i dun mind if u want my life to be miserable 4eva...bt god plz most importantly..my frens..yes my frens which includes the ba's.thier actually nice ppl really,its juz that they lead life differently than the kc's.god plz bless dem.aid thier heart if thier hurting now.especially sary..plz make her as happy as u can even if she's happy wif the ba n nt the kc.she juz have a new pool of frens.n hu are we to stop her.no matter hu she is wif juz keep her happy kiez.god,watch over her n bless her family.to the rest of the ba,even though i dun noe them..juz bring them happiness n peace in life.watch over them plz.

huda...the longest fwen ive known in hai sing,she have been hurt aloOot of times dis year.n seeing her hurt breaks my heart..she's even seen my tears 4 her.all im asking from u god is if solihin means the happiness in her life den plz watch over them.bless thier frenship n thier luv.bless our frenship sho that we can be frens 4 as long as u want us to.god i luv her alot.plz bless her n her family.keep her happy always aitez.

zati...her life is juz like a drama..which nv seem to end.hafiz[her enternity]means a lot to her.god plz watch after her n her family n huever dat brings her happiness .zati may seem strong bt yet she is vunerable.she is easily hurt.n i love her sho much.i look up to her n dah anggap her mcm my kakak sendiri.all i want is to c her happy.she's gone thru alot of sadness n for once make things in her life all right again.

yasmin...she merana dlm diam2.i noe she hate to show others her sadness n her true feelings.she's shed so many tears.god,wipe her tears n bring happiness to her life.show her the true meaning of being luved.watch out after her..coz she relli needs u.she turns to u 4 faith..lead her to the right path.clear her heart out.wadeva it is..i juz wish u cud make things rite 4 her again..everything...her happiness is my happiness.plz bless her family n her.arep means alot to her n if dey were meant to be,god open up thier hearts.both of dem.

god bless arep n maman.this 2 brothers..dey dun always show thier sadness.they bottle it all up n appear as jokers most of the time.yesterdae nite maman saed he has a personal problem bt he doesnt want to share it wif anybody.maman,though ive never seen ur tears..i noe they're flowing.god,juz keep him happy.his such a dear to me.dah mcm adek bradek sendiri.i'll always be there 4 u.bring happiness in his life n i hope he'll gt wadeva he wants.n arep,i cun read ur heart bt wadeva it is god sort out his heart.bless cik n family they're the best,thnx cik 4 everything.semoga bahagia slaluz.cyng cik!!

sarah..my idol.hehez.this talented fren of mine.=)god bless her,an n thier family.bless her relationship wif an.i noe they both mean alot to each other.n oso nt 4getting zawany..sarah dearie sis angkat.keep her happy.she's leaving hai sing.sho watch after her as she lead life.mia..im nt that close to her.even thou she is a free thinker god juz watch after her.god plz also bless faris[mia's sweetheart] n his family.watch out after them especially his father.ensure thier happiness the best as u can.ayam aka faisal...ur leaving hai sing soon.it juz wun be the same w/o u. i noe ur the sho called informer bt wth~ everyone is a hypocrite.wadeva it is god keep him happy n guide him thru life.semoga bahagia.fathin!!!the lil bruder to everybody.god watch after him too n thnx alot mak fathin!!4 everything=)god guide dis lil boy thru ups n downs.hafiz..zat's enternity.thou ur relationship wif her is sho called nt blessed by her parents n mr.das.hafiz juz hold on coz zati loves u alot n always will.god give him the strength to face wadeva ups n downs dat may happen.give him the srentgh to hold on n accept anything that may happen with calm.i noe he loves zati alot.n yeah kurangkan lah ego kawan aku ni.=P.god bless my other frens that names i did nt mention..

haiz..god bless mad...keep him happy.watch after him n ju.hope dey last as long as u want dem to.mad finally found his one love.though im nt close to him anymore god i hope u keep him happy n bless him n his family.n yeah,may s.o.l prosper!alfro romeo aka alfa..haiz dis boy here tak habis ngan pompan pompan n more pompan.wadeva it is god watch after him.bless his family.kalau boleh change his attitude 4 the better.buka lah pintu hati dier to be a better person.fir aka bir..i dunno if u'll eva read my blog bt i wanna sae thnx 4 always being there 4 me.u seem to understand everything no matter how complicated i put things.how are u now anywae??god plz look after fir..save him dari sumer anasir2 negatif dlm hidup ini.keep him happy n bless him n his family.abg aliff..hmz..now weve brindged the gap which is good.i appreciate u alot.now ur sumwhere out dere enjoying ur holidae..wen will u cum back??adek dah miss u ni..kiez god bless aliff n kak fizah.kak fizah means alot to him n she is his happiness.bless his family.keep him happy watch after him.azmi..dis bebas adek angkat of mine..god plz watch after him.he relli do need ur guidance.open up his heart..keep him happy.bless him n his family..mandeep,another one of my bebas adekz..god..both of my adek needs ur help.make dem turn to u for faith.keep mandeep happy.open up his heart.he misses nyz n if they were meant to be den god open up my sis's heart.wadeva it is..i want him to be happy.

to johan..hairul..iswan..n alip.huever u are wif now or will be wif..juz be happy.thnz 4 everything.god watch after them n keep them happy.all of dem are still dear to me no matter wad.ive nth much to sae bout dem bt god..bless dem n thier family n keep them happy...to my primary sch frens..thou we dah tak rpt sngt juz want u peepz to noe that i'll never 4gt u all n hope u all are happy leading life.god bless dem..watch after dem n thier family.n at ur will.we will all reunite one dae.

to my family...ayah..he juz went belayar..god plz..i beg u..watch after my father coz i still need him no matter wad.watch out 4 my sibs..mum..nenek,atuk,cuzzes,makcikz n pakcikz n huever it is.god watch after dem.bless our family.may we always be together till the end of time.how i wish..life last 4eva bt is nt.if one dae..one of them leaves me..i dunno how i'll cope wif it.especially atuk,nek som n tokne.=(dah lah ive nv felt kasih syng dari tok tan.='( haiz..

to my kwn chatterZ~especially adi!!!thnx alot...4 everything.4 being one of my beshfwenz..4 always dere to lent a listening ear.4 being wif me thru rain n shine.thnx 4 being hu u are.god plz bless him n keep him happy.dan kalau ader jodoh make him be wif the gal he love.god watch after him,khairul n kudek.kudek~walaupun he seem happy n alrite..i noe his nt..god plz give the strength to go on.n aid his heart.bring happiness to his life..i dun wanna lose any of them..they're the best.

n lastly...my dearie abg angkat cum ex...ryan..i dunno wad ive gt to sae to u..bt i'll be truthful ive been loving u since 27122003..cumer u jek yg tak tau.no matter hu im attched wif ur always in my heart i dunno y..i cun seem to 4gt u n my feelings 4 u have nt change since 280604.i..haiz..
no matter wad im still waiting 4 u.bt im beginning to realise..tak gune nyer mengharap kalau takde harapan kanz.haiz.='( *crying my heart out..silently..w/o u noeing*i cun afford to deny it lagikz...sho god plz bless him n his family.plz do keep him happy wif huever he is now even thou its nt me..his happiness is all i want.if his happy den im happy enough..bt relli im still waiting 4 u..n i want u to noe.entahlah..i dunno wad else ive gt to sae bout u...i cun even read my own heart..oh well!!*fake smilez*=)life juz aint right now..things are sho sho sho wrong...maybe things are juz meant to be this wae.god..i need ur help...=(n too everybody..i wanna sae sowiez..4 wadeva wrong ive done.hope u peepz will 4 give.my entry is long enough n ive saed wadeva i wanna sae.-chioz

god..i love u...

2004-12-24T22:34:00.000-08:00

well u noe..how its funny wen i sae that life is juz like a drama..which i dun think i could afford to act along?..i juz which life is juz like a fairy tale..n all the things in life would be perfect n peace n love wud exist.den i'll be able to seek help from the good fairy n ask her to turn my heart into stone.only then...well it stop feeling..n there where will be no heartbeat.*fake smilez*do u noe how it feels like to juz float arnd..takder arah tujuan dlm hidup.u juz wake up every morning juz 4 the sake off leading life??*dats how im feeling now.i feel sho blank!!i guess...cun relli read my heart.if only i cud.=)sho now all i can do is juz to kneel down to god n pray to him to make things all right back again n to heal my heart or at least turn it to stone;) god plz...i turn to u 4 faith..i noe things will all be alrite..eventually=(.i givup on everything..relli..i wanna let it all go n most of all god plz help me stop from leaving in denial!!im tired..of feeling..i wanna leave in realiti again..but i dunno how to..wud u lead me?god...plz...make my prayer cun true..2004 hv been a year too happening n confusing 4 me...i wanna rest my heart.wud u bring me peace??god...i love u..sho much..only u i cud seek 4 guidance..u wun let me down rite??

2004-12-23T00:40:00.000-08:00

heyz was flipping thru dis puisi bookz n found some relli meaningful once..oh well sho this is how dey go...

TASIK..
detik2 berlalu
kian perit kurasakan
saat2 pilu
begitu payah kutelan
hati ini bagai dihempap batan
setiap kali wajahmu terbayang
di segenap ruang hati
kuimbas kembali kenangan lalu
alangkah indahnya
tika kita sama2 melayari
tasik madu berbunga
Tapi kini..
aku sendiri memudik sampan
mengharung tasik itu
keseorangan,kesepian
berkayuh tiada beteman
kerinduan memenuh ruang
tasik yg dulunya tenang
kini mula berkocak
ombak2 kecil tidak lagi mesra
ada gelora di dlmnya
ada sengsara rembasannya
aku gerun...
akan hanyutkah aku
akan karamkah perahu ini
dilanda gelombang rindu sendiri
aku pasrah
tiada kekata bisa terluah
hanya jeritan batin menghela
melanda diriku
di tasik rindu...

REALITI..
tika menghadapinya
bagai duri menusuk sanubari
hilang pedoman dlm diri
insan yang dulu mencari
kini terus berlari
jauh dari realiti
Saat mengutip serpihan
bersama benih ngeri
yg kian tumbuh
memburu setiap langkah
bagai duri dlm daging
memakan hati insan
tangisan tiada pengertian
yang perlu tindakan
memukau kepastian
insan kian megerti
realiti tidak seindah fantasi...haiz...=( *

KIRANYA PERJALANAN INI TERHENTI...
kiranya perjalanan ini terhenti
tak mungkinaku berpatah kembali
biarlah aku berteduh di sini
daripada bernaung di pelabuhan sepi
yg merupakan sebuah perhentian silam
kiranya perjalanan ini terhenti
di dlm rimba duka yang ngeri
akan aku cagar kehidupan merentasu
setiap duri yg tumbuh di bumi
biar berdarah sebuah perjuangan
kiranya sandiwara ini terhenti
tamat sudah sketsa sebuah mimpi
tak mungkin terulang sekali lagi
hanya jarum tertusuk di hati
tertinggal kesan yang sukar dilupakan
kiranya sandiwara ini terhenti
terlepas aku dari sangkar illusi
menggari hidup bersama sepi
berteman cinta yg pudar erti
pengalaman begitu melemaskan...

haiz..hmz..
adakah hidup ini sebuah sandiwara yg mungkin tidak mampu ku berlakon sama?oh wells dah lambat kuz sambung sok jelah kiez.-chioz

aunty na n uncle shidy..macehz!![newly weds]

2004-12-22T00:26:00.000-08:00

heyz peepz~
i came to a conclusion todae..im gonna givup on everything..juz let all off it go..i dun think it relli matter anymore coz my heart is too tired of feeling..juz once i wanna give up on everything.coz i realised tak gune nyer mengharap...kalau takde harapan.4 wad kanz..it would only be more disappointing n definately a waste of time.all this while...m i living a lie?
wads the goal in my life?y do i wake up everydae 4 ??...wad wud i lose if one dae..i dun wake up at all?all this qns are running in my head now.hahaz i dunnoe y.its shoOoO sudden.i feel sho empty...hmz..well niweaz!!!todae auntyna n uncledy blanjered the whole family to dinner at mak's place.woohoo~!!!!hahaz 25 ppl ordering wadeva dey want...noe restriction at all.we dun even hv to look at the price..4 wad??dah kater orng blaje aper lagi sakan ah kiter.the ttl cost was abt $260.b4 dat we all were to guess the ttl price and ibu gt the closest answer.over dinner we discussed bout the trip going to melaka.at one point of time i wanted to go after dey sae me,kak jules,kak fizah,nyz n abg zaki cud g0 there naik bus.gerek kan~its the adventure n experience we're talking abt.beh last2 the final plan was sumer orng sumbat duduk dlm kereta to go there..i,nyz n kak fizah backed out.lagipunz i gt alot of homework to do.i relli meant alot kiez~~my god..leh panic..mengigil seh juz thinking abt it.haiz.tsk3..tml 22122004 nadia is getting her posting results..i relli wander wd sch she's getting.her agg is only 242.she cried bcoz i scored higher than her..apelahz.well it was one of the reason lah nt solely.n...27122004 i mkasuk camp..my birthdae asek gitu jelah..hmz..kiez chioz..niweaz wanna thank adi..4 being a gd fren!!fwens 4eva=Dthnx 4 always being dere 4 me.

2004-12-20T23:59:00.000-08:00

heyz peepz!!!~20122004...nth much uh nari.practically boring.went back home todae.relli miss ma bed.went ui woke up..dere's dis sedih feeling in my heart..i dunno y..celik mater jek pas makan breakfast watched kal ho na ho pat umah pak ngah..god..citer touching seh..very sedih.it relli made me realise erti sebuah pengorbanan demi kebahagian orng tersayang...i ngan pak ngah sedih bt tak nangis tetap mantain..kak fizah nangis silent hahaz bt dayah nangis tak mantain seh.sampai tersedu2 dier.haiz..terlalu into the story dier.member nangis ngan penuh perasaan.tsk =D ahackz.den pastu gedebak gedebuk practically did nth.den mlm amek buku from yas.tengok tv yadaa yadaa yadaa n now blogging..while waiting 4 someone tu reply my msg.wads wif him seh??haiz...n oh yah dayah sleep over at my house todae.
kelmarin~18122004....
auntyna nikah!!!wo0oho0o finally after 2 years..aunty na n uncle dy relli lost weight seh.now dua2 dah sekeping.mentang2 lah nak kahwin.hehe=P dat night especially was shoOoOO kecoh n tiring to the max!!me n kak fizah naik turun naik turun amek barang angkat barang gedebak gedebuk..my god..kaki saket seh..bt overall the night was ok.the camera man dat came tangkap hansem sak.menyampah dokz.tsk3 my cuz all were irritated juz by looking at him.n oh yeah my "supposing" mother in law showed up my god macam2 seh dat lady hahaz.step meminang lah tu lah ni lah.ahackz.n yeah her sis is kartini's aunty.as in my aunty nyer husband is her father nyer adek beradek..fhm!#?hahaz*cool*we're related*grinz*hehe.
yesterdae!!!the big dae~19122004=D
auntyna's wedding was held at changi simei cc.*wait2* b4 blogging bout it juz wanna shout out a million thnx to my dearie kc bebs 4 helping me out becoming the kedarat~hehe!!!THNZ YAS N ZATI!!caAaAayang u both loads.celik mater awal2 terus gi umah nenek.our sho called make-up artist was already hard at work.hehe.thnz kak jules!!!c i sho good uh give u credit.si mak andam junior ni penat sungguh make up kan cuzzen dier sumer hahaz.thnx alot gal~yelah saper lagik kan we can depend on=D*winkz*kiez pastu ermz..headed to the cc den masuk jek pintu hall tu nampak kak fatun,yas n zati ngah ketawe2 together gether.sungguh mesra kuz ngok.happy to see dat thier going along sho well.sebelum anyak owang datang zati did my hair den b4 the pengantin cum we did the rehearsal 4 the arrival of pengantin wif the silat ppl.hehe kek uh dem.n oh yah..me,dayah.kak fizah n nadia were the dayangs.zubir abdullah n sri warisan was also dere.the pengatin arrival ws great~!!!!!with flowers..kompang..n all!!it was amazing.the hall n flowere were relli nice.sarah,firah n adam looked sho cute!!n of coz the bride n groom were breath taking~!!!the dayang sat on stage with the pengantin n flower gals n boy.kaki semut2 seh.we watched the silat doing thier thing.ganas sak~!!!hahaz sho gedebak gedebuk eventx past by.n bik rozi n cik leha sang great~merdu suara.hahaz.now sumer owang dah tau dat my family is closely related wif m.nasir coz the dj made a big fuss abt it.hahaz.after the first family foto taking i n kak fizah n zaki n hafiz helped the kendarat out.pat dapur kecoh sak~!!!hahaz ppl actualy gave us warning such as nbaik2 panas panas ,sejuk sejuk wen dey are nt carrying anything.hahaz the boys saed dat juz to make the other peepz give way.we kendarat rules~~worked hard man!!damn tiring n baju ader kotor cikit thanks to the dunno-wads-my-sedare name iskandar.ahackz=P lol.well words cudnt describe the real situation of the wedding=Dso i'll stop here aitez.too many things happen uh.hehe.-chioz

2004-12-16T16:47:00.000-08:00

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Janganlah kau lupakan aku
Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka...

selembut sutera kata manismu..tapi tdk seputih salju

2004-12-14T11:17:00.000-08:00

ler saat kuz nak happy jek ader jek yg akn happen.abg aliff uat darah bleh up seh..haiz..niweaz wanna sae thnx to ryan n adi for caring.sowiez cun tell u peepz the real story.lalalalala haiz.chioz~

WaDs W|f ThE w0r|d...

2004-12-13T21:34:00.000-08:00

heyz..dah lamer tak blog tdo umah nenek buat berkat haiz..ebough about dat..im feeling shoOoOo hurt n low todae...now everything seems sho wrong..relli everything..im sho hurt..wads wif the world.where is the love.in this world..there's sho many hypocracy.lying n denial in the world..where do we go for faith n trust...haiz im crappy..im feeling shoOoOo low.tadi pat beach nangis n oh yah the class bbq juz now was fun.bt cumer takde mood.all the photos i took i look sho happy bt dey are all fake smiles..deep down inside im bleeding like mad.bt i gt this bad habiT of keeping it all to myself.yas,as i saed im just not use to letting out my deepest feelings to anyone.nt even to the one i love n trust..my kc peepz!!its juz nt hu i m..haiz..gawd..plz make all the things right again..brighten the light in my life..heal my heart n bring back happiness 2 it..b4 i relli givup n breakdown..

2004-12-10T16:16:00.000-08:00

heyz..i juz finished reading fads tagboard..sari commented oso..haiz i dunno what to sae.im nt involve in the conflict wif the ba even though im in kc.the ppl in ba are relli nice ppl relli.bt in this world deres hypocracy..betrayal..hatred...n dendam.bkn nak kater ba yg carik psl n wadeva crap.ba is in the wrong n sho are the kc.dua2 tak innocent.dua2 mulut tak tau nak mantain.sumer cakap ngan comment tak fikir psl fikiran orang lain.n me as the person hu observe u ppl gaduh or argue wadeva it is dah naik bosan.kc n ba dulu berkwn jugak pe.bt i guess things change.to see wadeva the ba's comment abt my frens[anak2 kc yg lain] relli breaks my heart.bt of coz there's two sides of the story.so far im only hearing the kc's side.sho hu m i to judge both grps.i dun side the ba's i dun side the kc's.even though i hang out wif the kc peeps doesnt me i totally hate the ba.ppl alah get a life lah!!!end all dis crap!!stop all the conflicts...n yeah sary dear..u have all the rite to go gaga over arep.hu are we the kc's to go against it.yas also likes him.sho???asl orang bnyk comment2.tak salah pe 2 gals like 1 boy.n fadilah..i respect u relli..i hv nth against u.but i cun accept wadeva u sae abt my frens.yas is nt moaning over syarif.dats exagerating sehz.n care u ckp bout ppl sho tactless.i noe is ur blog n u can write wadeva u want.kiter kc tak bnyk comment bout sary going gaga over arep.yas n sary use to be close frens last time..den wad is happening now??just stop all dis k...sowiez if anything i sae bout orng darah up~!!!

boredom uh..miss ma kc peepz!

2004-12-08T21:18:00.000-08:00

heyz!!!gawd freaking bored at hm...lalalala cannot kluar..dah 2 hari duduk rumah.mendak seh..n i miss my kc peepz!!!!how r u all doing???i miss ya all seh...hehe=Dyas did dis pic of the kc peepz.sho cute...hahaz.eh asl seh ngan ni blogger??kdng2 leh masuk kdng2 takleh masuk.aper sehz.dah takleh update regularly.hmz..life now boring..dae in dae out..tapi hmwk nanak buat.mls.sometimes i ask myself y muz i wake up the nxt morning??is dere anything i hv to look 4 ward to??hahaz nvm im crpping.hahaz -outs-

How Cum...

2004-12-08T15:01:00.000-08:00

heyz peepz,was just going thru raden's blog..n he used the how cum song by d12..the song mmg dah lamer carve inside my heart.the song means a lot to me..well actually i oso dunno why..*out*

How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed,
unless it's you
So young, so full of life in vibrant side by side wherever you weres ridin i went
So close, almost on some bonnie and clyde shit
When ronnie died you weres right by my side with a sholder to cry on
Tissue to wipe my eyes,
and a bucket to catch every tear i cried inside it
You even had the same type of childhood i did
Sometimes i just want to know why is it that you surcame to yours
And mine i survived it,
you ran the streets,
i 9 to 5'd itWe grew up,
grew apart, a
s time went by us,
then i blew up
To both yours and mine surprises
Now i feel the vibe i just cant describe i
tAs much as your pride tries to hide it
Your cold, you touch its like ice
In your eyes is the look of resenment
I can sense it, and i dont like it
It was my dream at first to be on spittin a verse
On my own album with a deal but shit got burst
So i came out i woulda killed a nigga first
Before i let him disrespect me and check me over some worste
Some bitch that i wasnt with i would hit her then quit
But you would pull a talk with her and tell her she was the shit
I told you dont get involved in it,
you was smokin the chron with her
Comin out of the bar with her stumblin half drunk
Like yall was husband and wife or somethin
But me catchin you fuckin other niggers musta hurt you pride or somethin
Cuz you wont fuck at the mouth with people like you wanted with me
When all i tried to do was show your bitch was shifty
And ever since the fans and all the shit that i produced
You actin like i aint you man and lyin like she can't be loose
But i am really you friend,
i'm jus trying to tell you the truth
But dont hate the game or the player
Cuz the one that is changing is you
You're only at the top cuz my homie had to stop
Now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
Homies in the hood only she be on the tube
Only gossip on the porch get to speakin on who
Fools i used to rap with all expect magic
Like my finger get to snappin and *poof* it jus happen
But PROOF is jus actin out the party was stoned
Shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
See the devil in you grin since the ghetto we been friends
Whenever real intelligence thats forever till the end
I be the hatred in your eyes and the satan in your lives
And wastin my times with these snakes in disguise
(how come) when you talk its with bitter is fightAnd
(how come) it's my fault for what you did with your life
And everytime i go to hear you and play you look away
We barely embrace, you can't even look me in my face.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

darah bleh up seh~!!

2004-12-04T20:05:00.000-08:00

kauz!!!!!wad the heck seh..nie blogger..darah leh up.satu minggu lebih i try to sign in bt tak bleh.beh now finally dah bleh.alot of things happen since my latest entry n i relli mean alot...
the most memorable event was ezati suprise birthday party..sho im gonna blog bout it.
[01122004],dlm kul 11 gitukz..met maman n yas.we went to loyang point to buy zat's birthdae cake.den we meet fathi dere pat mc.blah blah blah.den we choosed dis relli nice chocolate cake coz zat like chocs.den i went to dis shop n bought a wallet.5 buckz ony.hahaz budget den went to the supermarket to buy tidbits n crazy ribbons.met aisyahe1 n mum dere too.sblm beredar i called riza..tu anak pemalas seh nak gi zat nyer party.padahal he close to zati.beh i mentioned bout the food terus dier nak gi.hahaz.we walked back den met fiz,achap,'in and arep.kauz..anak2 nie sumer tak abis2 ngan bombag.dey bought two boxes!!!gedebak gedebuk under the block itself me n yas ordered canadian pizza 2 4 1.we ordered two pizzas n gt two free.ler nak naik atas to yas house...i n yas entered the lift dulu.beh dunno hu's the freaking person yg buang bombag dlm the lift.suar seh~hahaz.yas dah lari out of the lift sblm dat think burst.bt i was in the lift when it burst n juz made my wae to yas house sorang.once sumer orng dah kat atas i did zat wood card.paste the pics.sho the present we gt 4 her is dis party..the bum jacket she always wanted..n oso the wood card.ipen gt 4 her dis cookie monster n bracelet.sho cute~hehez.maman went down to his house n bawak naik citer the shutterz.den riza arrived.sementara tunggu zat dtng we watched a blank tv n the pizza's came.den 'in left to amek huda from sch.den at last zat arrived.yas met her,'in,hudz,mia n her sibs kat bawah.sarah and an cun come.beh last minute 'in cant go to the party.his parents tak kasi.
meanwhile~pat umah yas i asked the boys to enter yas room coz zat dunno dier dere.wen zat entered the house i was sitting at the sofa action watching tv den dey all satu2 went out n suprised her=).huda n mia dey all came up later.we tried to on the shutters bt the vcd player wun work sho yusof helped us do the plugs n wiring.thnx yusof~!!!so finally we managed to on the story.while watching we ate the tidbits n pizzas.the story scary seh!!we off all the light n doors sho tak terang.hafiz was the only one relli concentrating watching the story.yg lain sumer cam nak taknak tengok bab scary.hahaz.sho after all dat we cut the cake.zat potong the cake wif ipen~sho cute the both of dem.hahaz after that it was time to open the prezzies.zat was shocked wen she saw wad we gt 4 her.hahaz.den we played truth or dare n r.o.c.k rock game.bad luck seh~!! always kene sampai dah tiga kali kene anoh dare.i had to finish up all the tidbits by a certain time.mcm nak muntah seh.hahaz i was too full redi.k blah blah blah we den proceeded to the park.sebelum to me n zat went to her house coiz she wanna tukar baju coz she's going to the singapore idol!!!dats sarah birthdae present 4 her*grinz* hahaz gerek seh.we met up with the rest den we walked to town park.from all the ppl we cud had terserempak wif bt zat's bro n co.naseb baik dat time i was walking wif dem(zat n ipen) bt in btwn sho tak psl ah.sampai town park jek we met arep n an dere.both on their bikes.we lepak2 at the pavillion n playgrnd.dis achap go n pt the boombag buried under the snad.hahaz.we den played survivor.n ckp time ezati had to go off to meet sarah.we all juz stayed on....being crazy n all dat.last2 we walked back towards yas house n i hafiz n fathin walked to the 17 bustop.deres dis cat hu keep following fathin hahaz.beh i n fathin gt scared coz it kept chasing us.hahaz.hafiz finally stop shooed it away.i went back hm...rehat2 den met ibu at the neighbours house to watched singapore idol.sowie to sae dis taufik~~bt i only vote twice.hahaz budget ah.aunty na semangat go n vote brape puluh kali.hahaz.n yeah~!!!!taufik won!!he rawkz ma world!!first ever singapore idol!!!=).chatted wif kak julie after dat.she saed rumah nenek riuh nak mampus went the result was out n she even went to the balcony n scream~~hahaz syndrome seh.semangat taufik!!!wOOOohOOOo...lalalala hahaz.
smlm,[03122004] was sarah's birtdae!!!bt i didnt get to be wif dem to celebrate coz i went out wif kak fatun.nyz,kak aisyah n afiqah.we met at city hal den went to town.we took alot of neoprints.abt 3 machines.hahaz~~~the pics lawar sehz!!we walked n round places from orchard to plaza singapura.blablabla.i bought perfume..sarah's prezzie n dis tshirt.blah blah blah last2 dah penat we balik.wakakakkaka.mlm went to cik ani's bbq.terjumpe reapy.he was wif jack.sebok jekz tu anak.sho dats practically wad happen.wakakakak da mls nak tulis kiez ah byez~chioz.[myzz-g out]

grinzluv ma peepz.

2004-11-20T01:43:00.000-08:00

nari dah 201104~hahaz kulz 0049.tapi takpe ahz...letz juz talk bout wadeva happen the past 2 daes.181104..went jln rayer again wif the kc peepz[me,minz,hudz,'in,an,sarah,ezati,riza,alfa,mia,faris,ayam,maman n fathin]+tetamu yg tak diundang*ahem*.met at interchange,orng jauh datang awal..orng dekat melebih2 plakz dtng lambat..hahaz.time pat interchange sumer blank tak tau rumah saper nak gi...oh yah over dere i met mdm zaibon n ms faten n oso amirah n nurril..b4 i 4gt..HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAE NURRIL!!*grinz*
kiez gedebak gedebuk we decided to go to rumah yas.she cooked for us maggie dere!!!macehz!!sumer kelaparan seh.hahaz.n pat saner aper lagikz..foto taking ahz kiter sumer.hehe.after that went to huda's hm again..shikz nice.had even more foto taking dere.beh biler nak leave ader orng termisplace hp.tsk3..bt jumper ahz..skali ngan riza.we went to mia's hm.we all pakat nt to mention faris coz later he will nt be going up.sarah played the organ at her hm.mia's dogs are cute!!she gt two dogs..bt im scared of dogs..hahaz 'an dah phobia.in,riza,alfa n of course faris tak naik her hm.met den again..den walked to wany's hm.pat saner kiter adek2 discussed sal lots of things.hahaz sajejekz mengganggu wany nak blaja.
yadaa yadaa yadaa den proceeded to pasir ris back.went to sarah's hm.ader uninvited guest joined us.*no offence*actually din relly mind they being dere coz dey dun affect me relli bt dey affect my other frens.sarah's mum is relli nice.her bro n sis r sho cute!!pat saner kecoh to the max.hahakz masing2 sumer sacarstic habis.'in dah jadi superman..hahaz.den went to rumah an..the boys sumer smayang except alfa.kat saner gals sumer bobal mcm2 sak..hahaz.naseb alfa lah kene lyn kiter.wakaka.niwea an..ur hm nyer satae nice ah!!pastu gi rumah maman.lagik...=)watched sing idol dere.taufik rawkz!!2 kali gi..cik intend to kasi 2 duit rayer..me,zat n yas tak raser sedap gituk so we tolak wen she nak kasi duit rayer lagikz.niwea macehz cik..4 everyhing..cayang muz slaluz!!dah mcm mak izza sendiri=).beh went to rumah fathin..lagikz..hahaz.mkn2 pat saner..main congkak..hahaz.fathin nyer mak gerek eh?=Ppat saner kuz practice main gitar pat dlm bilik bujang*winkz*.den last2 gi rumah mdm zaibon!!aw...her anak sho cute!!she's gd at counting..biaserlah..maknyer guru poa.sejak dlm perut lagik dier dah knal numbers agaknyer.hehe.we all laugh nanti dier ikut ketawe.hahaz.sho kecoh dere.nice.wakakaka.den tu jekz.we all went our seperate wayz to balik.overall the dae was kekek.mcm2 word baru kuz blaja.haha.cartoon network lah..basketball lah..kewek..nickelodeon..etc2 yg sewaktu dgn nyer=D*winkz*
beh citer bab 191104 pulakz..
a typical dae..i woke up..lazed arnd at hm sal ibu tak kasi kluar..haiz..den mlm went rumah ayah teh..we talked abt kak huda..his ex wife nyer anak.heard dat sejak kahwin she tak contact2 dier..beh ayah teh saed..biarlah..he oso nt gonna contact her sal sepatutnyer anak yg carik bapak.he was even reluctant to c video pernikahan anak kandung dier sendiri..HAIZ..i was disappointed wen i heard wad he sae.n oh yah..hahaz heard mak hitam nak kawin lagikz!!after cerai-ing wif her husband..sultan selagor kepe~!!hahax mak hitam mak hitam..tsk3..berangan tak mantain.hahaz.den went to rumah tok hitam[to dose yg nak tau..she mak m nasir lerz]wen my dad telfon..seblm beri slm kepe she terus tanyer..ali biler nak dtng rumah~?!.hahaz.coz usually 1st dae rayer we go dere.bt dis year nari baru pergi.she aderlah tertunggu2 hahaz.wah cam honoured gitukz.den well dats all practically.now ngah chat ngan kudek n sum other chat peepz.haiz..i relli kecian kan kudek.oh well niwea boy,thnx 4 always being dere 4 me aitez.n oh yahz how cum abg aliff saw me dat dae bt i nv prasan him~??chioz~

izin kan diriku..meluahkan rasa..maafkanlah aku..andainya kau terasa

syg ku keliru
diriku ragu ragu
sejauh manakah keikhlasan mu
airmata mengisi birai mataku
ku terpingin merasa kasih syng mu
hati amat merindu
siapakah sebenarnya dirimu
kau bagaikan jejaka misteri
menghambat hatiku lalu sunyi
apakah harusku rasakan
adakah ia hanya sebuah sandiwara
yg tidak mungkin mampu berlakon bersama

hahaz...mungkin tiada kene mengena dgn yg hidup ataupun yg sudah mati*grinz*

luv ma frens to bitz~!!

2004-11-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

wakakakaka~dah lamer tak blog..hmz where did i stop ah???hahaz raser cam story telling plakz..kieziez..2nd dae rayer bleh2 tahan jek ahz gerek dier.went to all the pangkat nenek2 nyer rumah..on ibu's side.wif mak long's family.beh went to umah nek ngah..skali ibu's cuz ader.cedebabz.she still remember dat since young she calls me anak menantu..~wth.hahaz biaserlahz makcik2 zaman nie.niweaz yg takleh angkat is..setiap kali gi rumah bek long confirm lift jam nyer!!kauz..hahaz cam bad luck seh..dah bertahun asek jam jek.tsk3.so dats practically how my 2nd rayer went..3rd dae rayer..nadia went 4 her trip n me n family masuk johor..tdo saner skali.laze arnd at rumah bibik most of the time.ngok majalah pengatin ngan kak suri.help her pilih design n all dat..yadaa yadaa yadaa.wakakaka nth exciting to tulis ahz..
n todae 4th of rayer~!!!balik dari johor kul 10 lebih gitukz..kul 11 yas called ajak jln rayer.hahaz even though penat i go siap2 to kluar wif ma darling frens..saper ehk yg ikut nari??hmz...me,zati,hudz,minz,rep,maman,ayam,riza,achap,alfa,daiyan,in ngan fathin.did i miss out anybody??hahaz stm ahz.achap..maner samping pink muz??hahaz oh wells we all met at pasir ris mrt.b4 dat met yas,nue n maman first.after we meet..went to areps hm nak fetch dier sambil berayer..kecoh manz pat saner.i gt to sae dis..cik i luv ya!!hahaz maafkan eh sumer kesalahan izza dan halalkanlah segala makan minum izza ketika disana.*grinz*den went umah yas..dua2 rumah kiter self service.hahaz.pastukz gi umah fathin!!fetched him oso..hey ikut us jln rayer.gerek seh saner ..hahahz foto taking session.cik cooked 4 us spaghetti~macehz cik!!=)kat saner tngok iron chep..salmon lah tuna lah..wakakaka.kiez pastu gi rumah zati..ain cute!!!hahaz bt kakak dier lagik sweet ahz.*winkz*pat saner anak2 sumer kemarut ain.wakakak.lagik2 alfa n me.hahaz dier takut u ah alfa.alfa siap cium ain lagik.beh dpt tau ain tak kai pamperz anymore dier kater.alamak aku cium anak dara ahz.hahahaz step first time jek bro.beh main2 ngan bunny.hahaz yadaa yadaa yadaa.beh went rumah riza.nice place.someone asek masuk2 kedai nak beli batang biler on the wae saner.kat umah riza ngok video kenca nyer citra dikir comp.hahaz kenangan sak.beh gi umah saper ahz..lah nt sure ahz..oh gi rumah achap.beh on the wae dere slipper alfa putus..hahaz apeda.he n riza balik his hm.dey meet us later on pat rumah achap.beh drng dtng jek ngan hp baru..alfa jumper dlm bus kasi riza.semangat tu anak nak break code.beh time balik happening ahz...aderlah bende2 yg berlaku.beh gi rumah daiyan.time tu jek i feel cam sakit..dah lain mcm.kauz..siksa sak~!!!beh pat umah daiyan tak makan..baring pat kerusi..minum air limau..,lebih teruk seh..denz headed to rumah huda.her anak sedara was dere.cutez!!!wads the name??aqilah izzit?tahz i dunno how to spell.on the wae dere jumper fiz ngan his frens.sempat anak2 menyangkung main card pat bustop.tak senoh2 sehz.hahaz.pat rumah huda foto taking.besh.huda's mum kekek seh kacau acap..sinder2..wakaka.beh time balik..riza asek tertinggal sak!!dier ah asek gi toilet.beh ader jek orng tinggal brng..si ayam ngan alfa ahz..patah balik 2 kali seh.den pastu went my home.pat saner ader orng tu tenong gambar nadia semcm.muke dah boring..ngantuk ahz tu.,beh ayam kemaruts nak amek gambar grace.aiyoz.mcm2 tu anak.riza sorang plak yg dgn penuh kusyuk try to break code hp he juz found.we oso watched puteri gunung ledang.den pastu we went to our tenth house~!!!rumah faris.the cookiez dere sedap seh.orng sumer ngah dngr citer sal faris dad..haiz..sedih=(..ader mat jiwang tuz ngah syg menyayang ngan ahem.hahaz takleh angkat seh.beh we took pics dere too.,sembang2..bobal2...beh balik.now ngah menghadap comp n chat.dah tu jekz..sekian terima kasih.hahaz.nytez.oh yahz.happy anniversary sarah n an!!*grinz*

camat hari rayer!!!

2004-11-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

heyz!!!camat ari rayer peepz!!!*grinz*well i wud like to take the oppurtunity to sae sowiez 4 wadeva wrong dat i hv dat to huever out dere.especially to the kc peepz.maafkanlah kuz
=(..hahaz dah emo ahz nie..well i relly mizz ya peeps.nanti rayer we jln samer2 kiez.thou it wun be the same like last year..sho many things happen within one year..which change things relli.oh well wads past is past.smlm,mlm rayer went to geylang n it was raining.went dere wif nenek,aunty na,kak jules,nadia n fira.we bought alot of things yadaa yadaa yadaa.eh a'ah terluper!!hahaz ader bende happen.wakakaka.ader mat maner tahz go tanyer kak julie.."kak2 tolong kasi no.bdk pakai baju warna green tux?"den he gave kak jules his no.kak julie buat bodoh n juz asked him to tanyer nadia sendiri.wakakaka.very kekek sia dat incident.k lah wen i sae it cam tak klakar bt relli it is..=Dhis abt 17 ke 18.padahal nadia baru 12 even thou she dress n look atleast 16.*winkz*pas balik geylang..did inai at my hand...laze arnd..helped arnd..while waiting 4 the freaking tailor to deliver our baju rayer.we antar kain during june beh sampai skrng tak siap2.kul 2 pagi baru dey antar..kuang ajar kanz?sia2 jekz we antar awal.mcm2 hal ah dey all..wen we nak amek..go all the wae to johor..dey sae..miscommunication ahz..bz lahz..mcm2 ahz!!freakoz!!sho wellz.beh todae is rayer!!!!tetibe relli mizz tok tan...haiz..im sure my life wud be different if he is still alive.maseh tak puas ku menagih kasih syg darinya..haiz..oh wells.pagi2 cam biase gedebak gedebuk..beh gi rumah atuk..mintak maaf..amek gambar..hahaz me,kak jules, nadia n abg zaki tak puas2 lagikz amek gambar ahack*grinz*..bermake-up2 sungguh the kecoh manz.bt the part mintak maaf sho touching..anyak yg nangis..=(btul2 sesal niez sumer perbuatan yang lamer..wakakaka.bt syng ahz!!orng jauh kiter tak dpt jumper...orng jauh yg tinggal berblok2 jauh nyer dari rumah nenek.hahaz kauz..umah padahal dkt..samer compound lagik ader..bt sampai sho late till kiter tak dpt jumper..lerz well takpez.hope u peepz cum earlier aitez next year.sho lebih meriah den can take full family pics.=)at one time..we were all talking bout arwah's n graves..haiz..atuk sound sho sedih..=(..break my heart relli.after going rumah nenek went to umah tok ne..over dere gt to meet kaum keluarga kuz dari malaysia n singapore.sumer complete cumer takde ayah teh..cam tak rpt seh wif dem.den pastuz ramai2 jln to umah pak busu..led by our wonderful tour guys..miss bakal lawyer maria..hahaz.yadaa yadaa yadaa den went back hm coz ayah gt to siap2 4 work.pas ayah dah kluar me n nadia went to tm...bought make-up..split the money..n oso bajuz 4 her sch melaka-kl trip.balik..we gt to noe anjang sumer coming ovber..helped ibu siap2..den dey sampai bt i went out kejap wif mak hitam dey all to teman dem buy radio.gt back..lepak2 wif ma beloved cuzzies..watched the swan.great show.den dey all went back except bibik rozzi n mak hitam nyer family coz dey overnite'ing.sho finally..now..ngah chat jekz..jap agi nak tido..penat ahz..chao chin chaoz..

grinz

2004-11-13T11:32:00.000-08:00

heyz!!smlm 12 nov..7 years ago my only bro was born..happy birthdae adam!!todae went out supposingly wif zati n yas but den last minute yas cudnt make it.bt b4 dat chatted wif rin,mandeep n azmi.anak2 kecoh manz.sho after dat me n zati went to raffles medical first for my appointment.doc mike n nurse zuraini changed my dressing..dah tkyah pakai bandage..so my stitch is exposed.doc said gotta be careful coz the jahitan is tight.make sure not to be too rough coz it cud split open.whoah~dun even wan to think abt it happening.sementara tuz..ezati dgn kusyuk nyer tengah tengok mr bean outside the treatment room sambil msg ipen.ahackz.best citer tu gal??hahaz lerz...awak ni punz,cam budak2.niweaz,now senang 4 dem to communicate coz masing2 dah ader hp. sho well after paying n amek medication, zati needed to change dis $50 dollar note to all $2 dollars sho we went to the nearest bank n queued.den skali sari n her sis came in.i was suppose to guess her sis age..i guessed 17 bt her sis is actually only 15.hahaz she looks matured sehz.skola siglap sec.she n sari kindof look alike.den zati asked me to go to the counter to ask whether tukar duit kene isi form.beh the lady said they were out of $2 notes.asl?bnyk orng dah tukar duit tuk duit collection ke?takkan sampai dah out of stock.dah gitukz sho we left the bank.beh jln gi maner tahz.jln wherever our legs took us.i was following zati bt zati was following me sho we ended up not knowing where we were heading to.hahaz.den we decided to go to simei to cut my hair.kecoh psl wad bus to take..last2 baru realise its easier to take mrt.hahaz gendeng~.sho we went to simei..cut my hear..layered it n make the fringe shorter.pastu went to eastpoint walk2 arnd.went to toilet.i realised dat the fringe was too long.if i ikat oso wud still be strika.den we went to buy clips n scissors,the one 4 cutting hair.hahaz den entered the toilet again n let my new hairdresser to do the job.hahaz zati!!she cut my fringe.ppl she's talented tauz.sho saper2 nak cut fringe silalah approach zati.niweaz thnx gal!!at last my hair is not strika anymore dah ader fringe.den we went to watson..bought for adam 4 blocks of choc.we headed to pasir ris central after dat.gi oub to tukar the $2 dollar.bought my wrapping paper.den went to shop n save to buy magazine n prata instant.on the wae there saw zati's old fren.gt history uh.hahaz.bought the things redi den head to the pondok pat luar skola to jumper hafiz n co.saw ayam n rep on the wae.den sampai the pondok..ader hin,fiz,n thier outside frens duno hu.hahaz kecoh sak dorang.kacau2 anak2 loyang primary.hahaz.wrapped adam's present dere oso.hahaz menyempat kiter.sho gedebak gedebuk den we all headed hm.i went zati's hm.i layan ain sementara zati inai-ed her hair.ain sho cute sehz!!she went to her maid n sae.bibik nak kuih..ain nak share ngan kawan kakak.the wae she sae it sho cute hahaz.she dunno i puaser.watched tv den after dat masuk bilik zati n zati straightened my fringe.last2 she bored takder keje she straightened all of my hair.gal,macehz!!syg awak slaluz.den i headed hm..chat..azmi n rin dah ok.pastu maser yg di nanti2 kan dah tiber.its finally buker. after eating went rumah nenek 4 terawih.den headed hm.kecian adam.he waited for us to potong his cake.he look mcm nak nangis seh tunggu us lamer sngt.bt den ibu still gt to fetch ayah.sho he waited again.finally he dah very ngantuk n dah givup waiting he slept.ayah balik marah2 bising2.wth??dier marah2 kdng2 orng tak bersalah pun bleh terbabit..sheesh..den gedebak gedebuk gt to sleep early.so i slept.nari,woke up adam dah potong cake n all dt.i gave him his present.n now surfing while blogging while chatting wif azmi,rin n mandeep again.sho till here ony,byez-outz

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2004-11-11T01:37:00.000-08:00

k lah!!mite as well let the whole world noe my weak point is my ear rite!!letz juz advatise sho if anybody wanna hurt me terrible plz juz freely come up to me n squeeze..pull or do wadeva u wan to my already freakingly painful ear.juz dun worry if the bandage fall out or the stitch reap or wad.izza doesnt care.its very very nt painful at all.fun isnt it hurting my ear.if u need advice on how to do it or the best wae to do it..silakanlah approach my sis!!thank u..i can assure u she is of great assistance.n abt whether it being painful or nt..nahz dun worry..coz izzalina is actually relli enjoying it.sho jgn malu2.dun let go of dis beautiful oppurtunity!!done.

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2004-11-10T16:58:00.000-08:00

haiz..wads wif me??suddenly feeling down...i dunno y..my mind wun tell me y my heart is aching..haish.i dunno wad to feel..wad to think..wad to do..aleh2 otak blank..hati pun blank...=S

gt this from ezati's blog...its meaningful...

2004-11-10T14:45:00.000-08:00

Jika kamu memancing ikan....setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu....janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja.... kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kail mu dan mungkin akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup. Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya....janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja....kerana dia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu....

lalalalala....ahackz=D

2004-11-10T10:57:00.000-08:00

. . .cam speechless. . .haiz,todae is kindof the same as any other dae..the same cycle again n again..is like i wake up from sleep for no purpose..takde arah tujuan..coz i realised i dunno wad i want..what my heart wants..hahaz yas..i told u dis b4 ritez.well sho basically juz going thru dis daily cycle everydae...todae was ermz..tah ehkz dunno how to sae.juz cun desribe it n pt into words.bt the funny thing is..nth particularly exciting happen.cumer todae i feel n think alot.sho izzit good or izzit bad??hahaz i dunno.well woke up..laze arnd..nadia wanna use comp sho i juz let her use..meanwhile i watched xXx.hahaz relli cool show.i relli luv the stunts.=) den halfwae thru the movie nadia tak pakai comp lagi..she siap2 saying she meeting rin.den rin came wif azmi n some guys i dunno.bt ony rin naik to our hm.she was shocked to c my ear.she 4eva sehz call me along.hahaz.ikut nadia ahz tu.oh well after dat i use the comp..chat...wrote the previous entry yadaa yadaa yadaa.n oh yahz i oso made photo bucket.its only free at certain timez.weird huh.den if i make it other timez gt to pay.den discussed wif zati bout fridae.moz prob she n yas accompanying me to raffles medical 4 the opening of the stich.hope it wun sehz.beh browsed frenster n wished dat i didnt..haiz.oh well.den more of lazing arnd...laze laze laze..till buker.hahaz.slack uh.padahal hmwk bertepek taknak buat.mlz uh.den after buker watched cinta luar biasa..relli touching n cool show.nice.now use comp again n update blog.beh aleh2 bibik naik gimme the compact powder ibu baru beli.i unsealed it n found out the bedak dah pecah.wth.baru beli seh.i juz told ibu that then kauz..kecoh sak rumah.sungguh kuz menyesal bringing up the matter.oh wellz,gtg nadia wanna use the comp.n yahz..to memberz of the kc club..hahaz mizz ya all!!*winkz*

2004-11-09T07:31:00.000-08:00

heyz well todae is practically kindof bored n my ear hurts alot.think due to the shortage of medicine consumption,puaser pez..bt heck ahz.well woke up late..terus bukak comp ahackz.seblm tdo chat celik mater punz terus chat.ahackz.=)nt much ppl online.den tegured yas..beh huda yang reply coz she was at yas's place.dey going to take huda's booklist.den huda told me yas ngah siap2 coz arep wanna meet her..wassup wif dat?? well hv no idea yet,zati pun tak tau.later asking yas.[kpo jekz izza]hahaz.after dat godeh2 blog n online journal..explored it..freakingly confusing sehz~gave up!!sho seeked help from dearest huda!!the pro in lj..hahaz.thnx gal!!relli appreciate it.she decorated my lj sho uniquely n it was relli nice wif my pics in it even.den called ibu..mintak recipe m&m cookies.baked dem...solo...was quite fun bt very tiring.den finally had the oppurtunity to enter msn again.chatted wif roycarrol..ahackz dah lamer nv chat wif him.chatted wif zat n anisah etc2.den tadaa!!dah time for buke.yadaa yadaa yadaa ate drank and all dat.ibu said my cookie was nice=)den went into my room n watch sembilu.urgh!!!!i hate the story line..kauz..dun think it will be a happy ending.realising dat i juz off the tv.lazed arnd...watched fira's tarian cd..sakat adek...den now here i am.updating my journal.godeh2 dis hello thingy while chatting wif kudek n zati.hmz,freaking bored.wishing i was with my dear frens!!the kc club!!=)sho till here jelahz.nytiez~

~jiwangz~

2004-11-09T01:23:00.000-08:00

[mahligai dari airmata]
izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar kupaparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi
Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya
Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang
Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diriku
Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah
Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa dayaku
Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang...
[meraung]
Menggigil tubuh ini
Melihat kau bersamanya
Tergamam aku tak terkata
Meraung di jiwa
Puas ku pertahankan
Cinta kita sejak dulu
Tapi sayangSikit pun tidakMenghargai cintaku
Sia-sia saja
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaanku ini
Ku sangka kau permata
Rupanya duri paling berbisa
Ku pasrah dan berdoa
Semoga tabah jiwaku
Oh... tetapi bagaimana
Nak ku lawan
Jiwa yang siksa
Ke mana arah hendak ku tuju
Bila hatiku rindu padamu
Hendakku cari tapi tak guna
Kau bahagia dengan si dia
Dikamar sepi aku termenung
Terbayang bayang kenangan kita
Tidak ku sangka kauTergamak pergi
Saat ku masih perlukan mu
Ah...ah...ah...
Ah...ah...ah...Meraung di jiwa
Apalah daya kiranya
Orang dah benci
Ah...ah...ah...
Ah...ah...ah...Meraung di jiwa
Tapi tak pernah ku benci
Dirimu sayang...
[episod cinta]
Mengapa ada dusta
Tika cinta melanda sukma
Tika setia diombak resah
Masihkah ada bahagia
Mengapa ada dia
Tika rindu padamu saja
Tika restu untukmu jua
Akhirnya aku yang merana
Mengapakah aku diluka
Derita kerana sebuah cinta
Yang sekian lama kita bina
Inikah sumpah setiamu
Terhadapku setia selalu
Ke akhir hayatmuTernyata palsu
Kuterima semua ini
Sudah kehendak takdir Ilahi
Berakhirlah semua kiniEpisod cinta ini...
Menjadi sebuah memori
Dan jangan ada benci
Tika kesal menggamit hati
Tika segan menyentuh jiwa
Anggaplah lumrah dunia
[akulah kekasihmu]
Itukah dia kekasih
yang pernah berjanji
Memberi cinta untukmu sepenuh hati
Ia akan menyesal suatu hari nanti
Apabila ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu ini ingin kembali
Tahukah engkau ia tak sepadan denganmu
Walau beribu bisik pujuknya merayu
Kekasihmu ini terlalu ingin kembali
Sejak ia mengetahui
Kekasihmu itu selalu membuat kau bersedih
Oh kekasihmu ini akan merasa gembira
Andai dapat bersama untuk selama-lama
Hanya untuk menyayangimu
Hanya untuk bercinta lagi
Andai engkau berduka
Aku yang pertama di sisi
Andai engkau bahagia
Akukan terus berdoa
Semoga suatu masa
Pintu hatimukan terbuka
Dan kita akan kembaliBercinta lagi
Aku akan kembali
Walau jalan berliku
Kernaku kekasihmuHingga ke akhir hayat..

SoMe sOnGs..

2004-11-08T08:51:00.000-08:00

[belaian jiwa]

Seindah tiada lagi kau kuingatkan
Sayang kau hilang
Menanti biar sampai akhir hayatku di dunia ini
Kau tahu betapa kusayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir menentukan iaOh belaian jiwa
Oh angin sampaikan laguku padanya
Yang sedih pilu
Terimalah laguku jadi teman hidupmu
Untuk selamanya
Kau tahu betapa kusayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

[bila cinta didusta]

Bila cinta didusta
Hati mula gelisah
Hilang kekasih hati
Hidup jadi merana
Insan jadi idaman
Kini dimilik orang
Cinta yang diimpikan
Putus di tengah jalan
Terpaksa mengalah
Mengapa menyintaAndainya tak setia
Tak usahlah bercinta
Jika hanya berpura
Bila hati dah jemu
Mula berpaling tadah
Tak pernah difikirkan
Orang yang ditinggalkan
Tersiksa sayu pilu
Ooo...oo merayu-rayu
Ooo...oo ingin kembali
Ooo...oo meratap sayu
Tidak mungkin orang simpati
Menoleh pun tak sudi
Andainya ditakdirkanCintamu didustai
Pastinya kau mengerti
Siksanya perpisahan
Hanyalah ditemani sesalan

IzZaLiNa

2004-11-08T06:11:00.000-08:00

heyz ..well dis is my first entry n oso my first time using blog.dah terlampau bored sehz..well im nt relli use to putting my feelings into words..takut tersilap ckp or if i put it in the wrong wae.sho dun be suprise if my entries r sho vague.need time to adjust..ahackz=)sho for a start till here jekz ahz..~[MyZz-G outz]